Confessions of a Bad Blogger (Part 2)
I am a bad blogger. There, I said it, yet again. (See post from July 2013, it shouldn’t be hard to find, there were only two in 2013. I told you I was a bad blogger.) I started 2014 off well, with my January blog being done by January 7th. February 28th rolled around and no blog. I blamed it on having three less days that month to accomplish this task. Then March 31st rolled around. I blamed that one on the pollen. It’s April 30th and I still haven’t written that creative, funny, entertaining, life changing blog. Well, let’s be honest, there is still a lot of pollen in the air.
I have even recommended to several of my artist friends (comedians, musicians, photographers, actresses -okay more like “Drama Queens”) to do one simple thing. Take a weekend and write twelve blogs, one for each month. All those ideas you have, just run with it, do nothing else and all you have to do from there is copy, paste and post. Done!!!
I am a bad blogger.
To be honest, I have a hard time journaling. Whatever made me think I could do a blog?
I used to journal all the time. From age 16 to age 26, I was faithful to write in my journal daily. At 26 years of age life changed for me. And I mean changed. Life had just gotten so hard the last thing I wanted to do was remember every single last detail. So I made the decisions to stop writing in my journal. When I was a child we called it a diary. I guess journal sounds a little more spiritual and mature but for me it was allowing me to hang onto anger and resentment and hurt and distrust. I had to walk away from my journal. That was over 23 years ago. I haven’t picked one up since then. Well, not in the traditional meaning of the word. I have a journal that has all my comedy routines in them. (It’s always a good to write that down.) I have a journal that I use for sermon notes. I have a scripture and quotes journal, where I write down verses and sayings that mean a lot to me and encourage me. (I have a LOT of the same scripture written down repeatedly by the way.) And I have a journal that I write in when I do a book study or a word study in scripture and I have a prayer journal. I guess my prayer journal is more like a daily journal than the others I use. The prayer journal has more personal prayers and maybe some events, but not like it used to.
Not writing in a daily journal made me wonder, have a lost part of my story? I don’t think so. I help host and (in)Real Women’s Conference last weekend and I loved hearing everyone stories. Our stories do matter, but my take away from the weekend is that “God wants to be the hero of our story.” And I believe he has done just that for me. By my not “writing” down all those things that have happening, I don’t have a clear memory of them, but the memory of that time period will always be clear to me. Why? Because I don’t remember EVERY detail, but I remember what God did. I remember what He held me through, how He turned something I never thought I would get over into 20 years of laughter. I remember that God my hero. I don’t have to try and be my own. I don’t need to journal that to know that. He has proven it over and over. He also wants to be the author of my story. Hebrews says is the “author and finisher of our faith.” We need to let him write and BE the hero of our story.
Scripture also say in Habakkuk 2:2-“Then the Lord replied: “Write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a herald my run with it.” Deuteronomy 3:19 also says “Now down this song and teach it to the Israelites and have them sing it, so that it may be a witness for me against them.”
Our stories are worth re-telling. They are designed to be a witness and to teach.
So, now I am convicted…I can’ t promise that I can undo this “bad blogger” thing, but I can promise that I can share about my Hero. The one who died on the cross so I didn’t have to. The one who loved me to the point of death and the one whose story is the thread that ties all our stories together.
May this bad blogger always remember that.